Life's Luggage
By the time I was 17 and rushing to be married to someone the Lord told me not to, I had a huge array of luggage. Some were large, some were small, and while others were so heavy it seemed I couldn’t carry its weight. 17 years of age brought me small carry-on’s that were filled with self doubt, self loathing, and low self esteem. I also had large bag’s that were filled with fear and pain. The largest piece of luggage was filled with anger and abuse.
As life went on I began to carry newer, even more different size’s & colors of luggage. The giant red piece of luggage kept getting filled with more abuse and anger. The black carry on was being overstuffed with sadness to where it had to be upgraded to a larger piece of luggage, the blue 1 with self doubt and loathing. As the years went on the luggage kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger…each time being upgraded to an even larger piece.
Then 1 day….not sure exactly when…but I think its when my brother committed suicide, I lay on the floor weeping, crawling to the Thrown of God’s Grace asking Him to please help me or teach me what I am supposed to do with all of this luggage as its just too heavy now to carry. That my life is His and I believe He has a plan and a lesson in each and every situation. I lay at His Feet asking for Him to replace this luggage with His Own.
As the years have gone by and I sit here, I see His Grace with such an awe I weep.
Each piece of luggage has been or is in the process of being replaced with a very small gold satchel. A satchel so refined by fire that only by the Grace of God’s Love did I receive it. In my satchel I have jewels…..jewels I will someday lay at His Feet along with the Gold Satchel He has given me.
I still have some pieces of luggage left, but the gold satchel is filling up with jewels faster than the luggage these days.
My red trunk is being replaced with Love, Mercy and understanding.
The black luggage has been replaced with Joy and Peace.
My Blue luggage…God has given me a fine jewel gently placed in my satchel by His Love and it’s just that… His Love of who I am in Him.
Some of my other pieces of luggage I have readily handed to Him and gained wisdom, humility, compassion and a deeper understanding that only by His Grace am I who I am today…that every person I may come in contact with may have luggage they too are struggling to give up to Him.
Only God can change me to be who He wants me to be. No sermon, no judgment of others, no condemnation from others, no fear, no pain will ever be changed unless I am willing to kneel at His Feet and ask for Him to replace the luggage I carry with 1 of His jewels to put in my gold satchel.
I knelt at His Feet and because I could not make it to Him as He is too Glorious to reach on my own, He knelt down to me and met me where I am and began helping to replace the luggage of my life with His Love so I may walk from Glory to Glory with Him.
As life went on I began to carry newer, even more different size’s & colors of luggage. The giant red piece of luggage kept getting filled with more abuse and anger. The black carry on was being overstuffed with sadness to where it had to be upgraded to a larger piece of luggage, the blue 1 with self doubt and loathing. As the years went on the luggage kept getting bigger and bigger and bigger…each time being upgraded to an even larger piece.
Then 1 day….not sure exactly when…but I think its when my brother committed suicide, I lay on the floor weeping, crawling to the Thrown of God’s Grace asking Him to please help me or teach me what I am supposed to do with all of this luggage as its just too heavy now to carry. That my life is His and I believe He has a plan and a lesson in each and every situation. I lay at His Feet asking for Him to replace this luggage with His Own.
As the years have gone by and I sit here, I see His Grace with such an awe I weep.
Each piece of luggage has been or is in the process of being replaced with a very small gold satchel. A satchel so refined by fire that only by the Grace of God’s Love did I receive it. In my satchel I have jewels…..jewels I will someday lay at His Feet along with the Gold Satchel He has given me.
I still have some pieces of luggage left, but the gold satchel is filling up with jewels faster than the luggage these days.
My red trunk is being replaced with Love, Mercy and understanding.
The black luggage has been replaced with Joy and Peace.
My Blue luggage…God has given me a fine jewel gently placed in my satchel by His Love and it’s just that… His Love of who I am in Him.
Some of my other pieces of luggage I have readily handed to Him and gained wisdom, humility, compassion and a deeper understanding that only by His Grace am I who I am today…that every person I may come in contact with may have luggage they too are struggling to give up to Him.
Only God can change me to be who He wants me to be. No sermon, no judgment of others, no condemnation from others, no fear, no pain will ever be changed unless I am willing to kneel at His Feet and ask for Him to replace the luggage I carry with 1 of His jewels to put in my gold satchel.
I knelt at His Feet and because I could not make it to Him as He is too Glorious to reach on my own, He knelt down to me and met me where I am and began helping to replace the luggage of my life with His Love so I may walk from Glory to Glory with Him.
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